Wednesday, June 30, 2010


I am just keeping it real today. Somewhere between changing dirty diapers, folding laundry, cleaning toilets, wiping up spills, picking up toys, cooking dinner, washing dishes, breaking up fights, kissing boo boos, feeding the dogs, taking kids to the dentist, paying bills, and bathing children I have become lost. I see this form that resembles me, but the true me appears to have gone MIA. In my place is some sort of robot that starts first thing in the morning and doesn't stop until late at night, but still doesn't finish a fraction of the things on the to-do list. I feel invisible to the people around me. People that I once thought good friends seem to have gone with the wind. I have somehow lost my identity. I must be in a strange phase of life I guess. I love my kids dearly, it is just that I miss me.


Jenn said...

Aww Kel, I can relate to this post more than you'll ever know. I may not be at home all day doing those things, but those are the things I do when I'm not at the office. I miss me too.

I constantly feel exhausted and too tired to do anything I WANT to do.

Maybe it is a phase because I feel like my good/best friends are nowhere to be found too.

Much love to you, Kelly!

mommaof3 said...

Totally get you! I have had a weird day today, too. Lots of laying around, not like me.

Long days and short years, right?

Much love, friend-

Kathleen said...

I'm totally with you!! Take it day by day -- that's the only way to get through it sometimes. Recharge when they go to bed and make sure to get plenty of sleep. It's so much harder when you are tired too. Hope tomorrow is better!!

Kierstyn said...

Hey Kelly! I, along with many of the other mommas who have already commented, can totally relate. I love my life, my husband, my children, and where I am. But there's a part of me that can still clearly remember where I was not that long ago. I see where I was, and I see where I am, and it's so different! I'm so different!

Hugs to you!! I hope that you're able to find yourself again, or better yet, or learn to love where and who you are now.